Sad news today, my favorite hometown bar, only because you can both dance and play beer pong there, burned down on Saturday evening! Yeah its tragic, but still kind of cool to know that I was one of the last people in the bar as we left well after closing on Friday night...Just an interesting tid bit.
Also, anyone have any ipod recommendations? I used to find it easy to work out or run without music but once I got into it I realize how impossible it is to now train without it, so im in the market for a new one...I was thinking a touch with facetime perhaps...
Kerry and I went on our first official date, it was a double date, and we saw The Mechanic with my bro and his girl. Pretty solid movie with great action, and yes it was fun. Afterwards we came back to my house and she kept just looking at my as if she felt awkward, not knowing what she wanted to do, or rather knowing that she wanted to do something but not wanting to say it...That kind of thing really bothers me so I hope that doesn't become habit. And yes I've already mentioned that to her.
Finally, I think it sucks having to work out by yourself. I miss having Chin bug me about going to the IM building because well when you have a friend with you it makes things so much better, one for spotting, and two for motivating you to push through that last set....Motivation, one thing my general working out is in serious need of....Why do we work out? For ourselves? To look good? To feel good? To run a marathon? To be able to show your kids what you mean when you describe an exercise? Anyone out there have a good answer?
Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Snowed In
Well here on the east coast and I believe most of the northeast we were just hit by a wonderful little snow storm. Looking out of the sliding door I can clearly see about a foot of snow gathered on the deck. This basically means I am stuck at Kerry's house, which until last night I wouldn't have considered a bad thing, so this small entry will describe what I found to be the culmination of a bad day, my first of which in a long time.
News of the snow came early and prepations were made, despite that school was still canceled in the morning, which meant no game and no subbing. So I decided to take most of my day to watch more HIMYM and thus my day started nicely. Around 2 pm Kerry made a push to get me to come over, so we could be snowed in together. At first I was hesitant, I had just made the 20 min drive on Monday and hadnt come back home till tuesday evening. Thats a lot of time to spend with one person consecutively and even though we are official I don't want to be over there all the time. But trying to be a good boyfriend and all I decided that I would surprise her and drive over, after convincing her that I wasn't coming. My plan was to beat the snowfall which was slated to start after 4 and increase every hour through the night. I was held up at my house and ended up leaving around 4 but it was only raining at the time. About halfway through my drive the rain turned to snow and thus everyone on the road forgot how to drive. The remainder of my drive averaged at 5 mph....yeah not much else to say there, at least the radio station djs understood my stress and decided for once to play a great stretch of music for my now 3 hour car ride. Yeah so that put a little damper on my trip and ruined my surprise for her as my mom called her worrying about where I was. Once I got to Kerry's house( after about a one mile run in the snow to get there) everyone met me with a warm greeting and the drinking commenced. I wasn't terribly interested in drinking that much because I had my fill in AA but I decided to play along...bad idea it turns out...Most of the night turned out fine but around 10 oclock the jersey shore event of the evening ruined it for me.
Most guys enjoy a good fight, maybe not taking part in it but at some level we humans like to spectate a good brawl. This however wasn't your typical push each other around, throw a few punches and then break it up fight, this was the pinnicle for all guy spectators, a Catfight. Well at least you would think so. Most cat fights have a lot of screaming, name calling, and hair pulling, with the occasional piece of attire being ripped...all things pretty appealing. But this fight had no attire being ripped and was between two sisters. Yeah two very close lived together almost their whole life, 1 year apart inseperable sisters. The words being exchanged were in the hurtful variety and they were actually throwing punches and kicks. It was a big mess. But most of all, it was terrible because out of the scuffle imerged underlying issues that I think will haunt these two sisters for awhile to come. What caused such a falling out you ask? Well one sister claims she is a virgin and the other refuses to believe her. Granted she had just walked in on them without any clothes on and on top of each other, but HIMYM taught us that situations aren't always as they appear.
So why did this really bother me more so than most fights, well because these sisters are Kerry's roommates and ontop of that Kerry already got into a similar fight, minus the physical abuse, with on of the sisters. In other words this is becomming a drunk habit of these girls and one that I really dont want to be apart of. I always tell people there's nothing worse than keeping things in until they boil over, and this only strengthens and proves my point....ugh I almost don't even want to be around these girls anymore as they refuse to actually talk sober about their issues and work them out. My plan from now on is really not to drink around them, and if I do it will be a glass of wine with dinner or perhaps a vodka tonic....Thus my adventures of the boyfriend start this way...disliking the best friend roommates of my girlfriend....looking forward to this next day being snowed in, at least I'll get to watch inception again, granted not on bluray.
News of the snow came early and prepations were made, despite that school was still canceled in the morning, which meant no game and no subbing. So I decided to take most of my day to watch more HIMYM and thus my day started nicely. Around 2 pm Kerry made a push to get me to come over, so we could be snowed in together. At first I was hesitant, I had just made the 20 min drive on Monday and hadnt come back home till tuesday evening. Thats a lot of time to spend with one person consecutively and even though we are official I don't want to be over there all the time. But trying to be a good boyfriend and all I decided that I would surprise her and drive over, after convincing her that I wasn't coming. My plan was to beat the snowfall which was slated to start after 4 and increase every hour through the night. I was held up at my house and ended up leaving around 4 but it was only raining at the time. About halfway through my drive the rain turned to snow and thus everyone on the road forgot how to drive. The remainder of my drive averaged at 5 mph....yeah not much else to say there, at least the radio station djs understood my stress and decided for once to play a great stretch of music for my now 3 hour car ride. Yeah so that put a little damper on my trip and ruined my surprise for her as my mom called her worrying about where I was. Once I got to Kerry's house( after about a one mile run in the snow to get there) everyone met me with a warm greeting and the drinking commenced. I wasn't terribly interested in drinking that much because I had my fill in AA but I decided to play along...bad idea it turns out...Most of the night turned out fine but around 10 oclock the jersey shore event of the evening ruined it for me.
Most guys enjoy a good fight, maybe not taking part in it but at some level we humans like to spectate a good brawl. This however wasn't your typical push each other around, throw a few punches and then break it up fight, this was the pinnicle for all guy spectators, a Catfight. Well at least you would think so. Most cat fights have a lot of screaming, name calling, and hair pulling, with the occasional piece of attire being ripped...all things pretty appealing. But this fight had no attire being ripped and was between two sisters. Yeah two very close lived together almost their whole life, 1 year apart inseperable sisters. The words being exchanged were in the hurtful variety and they were actually throwing punches and kicks. It was a big mess. But most of all, it was terrible because out of the scuffle imerged underlying issues that I think will haunt these two sisters for awhile to come. What caused such a falling out you ask? Well one sister claims she is a virgin and the other refuses to believe her. Granted she had just walked in on them without any clothes on and on top of each other, but HIMYM taught us that situations aren't always as they appear.
So why did this really bother me more so than most fights, well because these sisters are Kerry's roommates and ontop of that Kerry already got into a similar fight, minus the physical abuse, with on of the sisters. In other words this is becomming a drunk habit of these girls and one that I really dont want to be apart of. I always tell people there's nothing worse than keeping things in until they boil over, and this only strengthens and proves my point....ugh I almost don't even want to be around these girls anymore as they refuse to actually talk sober about their issues and work them out. My plan from now on is really not to drink around them, and if I do it will be a glass of wine with dinner or perhaps a vodka tonic....Thus my adventures of the boyfriend start this way...disliking the best friend roommates of my girlfriend....looking forward to this next day being snowed in, at least I'll get to watch inception again, granted not on bluray.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Retirement Party
The time is finally here, it happens to everyone, the end of a season. It's time to hang your uniforms, put away your shoes, clean on your lockers, lock up your belongings, and well move on. For me its been a long time coming, there have been spurts of it here and there, an off 3 or 4 months where I was on sick leave, a period of 3 1/2 years where I was no where to be found. But now I've made it official, I'm retiring from the game that I love. I know there are many skeptics out there, and talks of comparing me to "Brett Favre" are not to misplaced, but like MJ did to basketball sometimes you feel like you need to go out on top and try different things. So here it is, my decision, I'm hanging up the galfing cleats, putting my clubs away in the garage, and going out into the world of the relationship. Wish me well...
Big news I must admit, and a hard decision it was. Galfing has always been there for me, through thick and thin. Its helped me discover all I can about myself and turned me into a fine tuned and well oiled competitor. So why then do I leave the game behind, well its simply to explore the possibility of a new future. I've always believed that if you're going to try something, if you're going to make a play or a gamble, then well like the ex-coach would say you need to go "all in." So that's exactly what I plan on doing, going all in. I mean I don't expect much of my behavior to change, flirting with friends and other people comes naturally to me so turning that off would be "implossible" but at least I won't be playing on new courses anymore, just looking. Looking is in our, well definitely my nature but there's no harm to it and I'll do my best to keep it just at looks.
Going back to Mich was a great time. I won't spend time on the details or anything but if you want to know any stories you can always ask me. Basically it was like things never changed, the people sure, but the lifestyle not at all. It was still me Cassie Kenzo et company against the world and like always Ricks won it's fair share of rounds. There's something about getting on stage at Ricks, looking out at the bar and dancing some semi-choreographed dance that will never get old. But you know the trip back was so much more than that, it helped me realize that you can still have some strong friendships and bonds without being in such close proximity as I was used to, and really it inspired me to keep in closer touch with all the 1502 alum. I mean these days I'm saving money and planning all sorts of extravagant trips to meet up with my old running mates and I am excited for the possibilities the future holds for all of us...
As for Business, it did not go so well. For a couple of weeks I was fighting with UM to release my transcripts so I could complete my grad school apps for next fall. Well they had good cause to keep them since I had a couple hundred bucks left to pay off on my bill but i was literally two weeks away( next paycheck) from doing so and long story short they weren't really working with me. So now my plan to head down the counseling psychology path next fall will have to wait a year, a whole year. That was tough for me to hear and put a big damper on my overall life plan, but then again I'm used to set backs and let downs so it doesn't deter me from my ultimate goal at all. What I'll do is keep pressing forward, maybe look at some GA coaching positions like Mike D and find a way to get myself where I want to go, basically all this means is more work for the time being, which leads to more saving, when then results in more trips, which has the inevitable end of more fun times....so like Kenzo likes to say I'm a glass half-full kind of guy.
Another thing the Mich trip taught me was that I'm still awesome. Ha I don't mean that in a conceited way I've just been watching so much "How I Met Your Mother" thanks to Jack baby and Saint that it's hard for me not to make references to it in almost anything I say. If you haven't seen you show I STRONGLY advise it, one of the most entertaining programs on network TV to date. But I wanted to try two things after my HIMYM binge, the "Naked Man" and buying a suit. Barney from the show, Neil Patrick Harris, always wears a suit and well no homo but he wears them well. I realized that I have yet to purchase my own first adult suit so thats one of the next things on my agenda....As for the "Naked Man" it's something I've done before and well the 2/3 success ratio is no joke. If you want to know what it is, then I suggest you check out this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pim_pzTiu6Y to get a basic picture.
Well my first order of business is to change the name of the girl you've all come to remember and love as 45, I shall hence call her by her first name Kerry. I've played the game so well, let's see how I do in retirement. Well I gotta go do some shopping for my house(buying things not an actual house) so I'll check back in later.
Big news I must admit, and a hard decision it was. Galfing has always been there for me, through thick and thin. Its helped me discover all I can about myself and turned me into a fine tuned and well oiled competitor. So why then do I leave the game behind, well its simply to explore the possibility of a new future. I've always believed that if you're going to try something, if you're going to make a play or a gamble, then well like the ex-coach would say you need to go "all in." So that's exactly what I plan on doing, going all in. I mean I don't expect much of my behavior to change, flirting with friends and other people comes naturally to me so turning that off would be "implossible" but at least I won't be playing on new courses anymore, just looking. Looking is in our, well definitely my nature but there's no harm to it and I'll do my best to keep it just at looks.
Going back to Mich was a great time. I won't spend time on the details or anything but if you want to know any stories you can always ask me. Basically it was like things never changed, the people sure, but the lifestyle not at all. It was still me Cassie Kenzo et company against the world and like always Ricks won it's fair share of rounds. There's something about getting on stage at Ricks, looking out at the bar and dancing some semi-choreographed dance that will never get old. But you know the trip back was so much more than that, it helped me realize that you can still have some strong friendships and bonds without being in such close proximity as I was used to, and really it inspired me to keep in closer touch with all the 1502 alum. I mean these days I'm saving money and planning all sorts of extravagant trips to meet up with my old running mates and I am excited for the possibilities the future holds for all of us...
As for Business, it did not go so well. For a couple of weeks I was fighting with UM to release my transcripts so I could complete my grad school apps for next fall. Well they had good cause to keep them since I had a couple hundred bucks left to pay off on my bill but i was literally two weeks away( next paycheck) from doing so and long story short they weren't really working with me. So now my plan to head down the counseling psychology path next fall will have to wait a year, a whole year. That was tough for me to hear and put a big damper on my overall life plan, but then again I'm used to set backs and let downs so it doesn't deter me from my ultimate goal at all. What I'll do is keep pressing forward, maybe look at some GA coaching positions like Mike D and find a way to get myself where I want to go, basically all this means is more work for the time being, which leads to more saving, when then results in more trips, which has the inevitable end of more fun times....so like Kenzo likes to say I'm a glass half-full kind of guy.
Another thing the Mich trip taught me was that I'm still awesome. Ha I don't mean that in a conceited way I've just been watching so much "How I Met Your Mother" thanks to Jack baby and Saint that it's hard for me not to make references to it in almost anything I say. If you haven't seen you show I STRONGLY advise it, one of the most entertaining programs on network TV to date. But I wanted to try two things after my HIMYM binge, the "Naked Man" and buying a suit. Barney from the show, Neil Patrick Harris, always wears a suit and well no homo but he wears them well. I realized that I have yet to purchase my own first adult suit so thats one of the next things on my agenda....As for the "Naked Man" it's something I've done before and well the 2/3 success ratio is no joke. If you want to know what it is, then I suggest you check out this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pim_pzTiu6Y to get a basic picture.
Well my first order of business is to change the name of the girl you've all come to remember and love as 45, I shall hence call her by her first name Kerry. I've played the game so well, let's see how I do in retirement. Well I gotta go do some shopping for my house(buying things not an actual house) so I'll check back in later.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Two Hours Delay
Wow it has been quite some time since I've made a serious post, I apologize to any of you who actually want to know what I've been up to. With that being said, this post will be a lot of what's been on my mind lately, what I've been planning to do, and what I've been up to.
First of all, what have I been doing?
Well I am now a full blown assistant basketball coach. Along with that title come all the responsibilities of not being the head guy in charge, meaning I have to do a lot of the grunt work. Last night I got to travel to another school, while we had a home game, and scout two of the teams playing. It was my first scouting experience but it was pretty good. Watching two teams play that I have no stock in is interesting, and by half time I found myself routing for one of the teams regardless. During practice times I'm in charge of the extra conditioning, mostly from disciplinary actions, of the kids, as well as make sure practice keeps moving along in a timely fashion, working the scoreboard, getting supplies, and keeping the kids focused. Every now and then I actually get to coach, but since I have very limited basketball experience I suppose its not so much of a bad thing for me to not have too much input.
During the daytimes, I either have been staying at home, or more recently substitute teaching a lot. I have become somewhat of a token celebrity sub as all the kids who about me and cheer whenever they see me in the hallways. I get a lot of sighs when they realize I'm not really there for their class ha. I think a lot of my renown comes from my little bro, who appears to be known by everyone of all grade levels there. Last Saturday we had a surprise 18th Birthday party for him and there were over 40 kids at our house....40, I can't remember a time in high school when I could get 10 people together much less 40. But anyway I sub anywhere from 2-5 times a week, which means I get to go to bed around 11 every night and wake up at 6. The good thing is this prepares me for the job I'm going to get one day, although at this moment that seems a good bit off.
As for my social life, I've been experimenting hanging out with different groups of people and so far nothing of note has happened. I guess it's true what my little brother says about me I have "high standards for everything." I mean when it comes to friends, at this point, I'm not too interested in making acquaintances I only go out to the bars with, because well I've done all that before, and we did it well. I'm trying to make more well rounded friends that either have their life in order already, or are at least on a path to do so. Oddly enough, the more I substitute teach, the closer I get to a lot of the teachers in the school. They start to ask for me by name to cover their classes and a lot of the younger teachers have heard about me. This is nice because there are a couple of them that I would like to get to know better and for the moment at least they aren't rocking any jewelery on their left hands.
So anyways as a summary, I've been coaching, sub teaching, and searching for a new group of friends closer than Chicago and Michigan.
What I've been planning/thinking about my future.
So what do I want to do eventually, its a question that people always seem to ask you when you meet and a pretty good one I think. It's always nice for a person to know the path their on, and eventually where they want that path to take them. For me the answer is definite, back to school. I'm just about ready to finish paying off my education at Michigan, thanks to living at home and working and saving money, and now about ready to start that grad school thing. Due to my lack of being able to get my official transcripts, I wasn't able to feel the fall deadlines in entirety, so the people at the office of the local school I'm applying to are trying to work it out or I just might have to wait for spring. In either case I plan on going back to school and getting my master's in counseling psych. After that I want to work asap, and hopefully continue to work towards my Ph.D. As I continue to coach and interact with student athletes, I'm thinking that I have an interest in coaching also. So I'm looking into schools with graduate assistant coaching positions and potentially trying to do that route as well. In the mean time I will continue to coach at my high school and keep meeting contacts and people in the area to get my foot into that door as well.
As basketball season begins to wind down, I'm looking ahead to my real passion, Track. This spring I get to start coaching track which I am very excited for. To be able to teach kids to love the sport that got me so far in my young life and gave me the opportunities to see things I would never have seen otherwise. I think that while my high school doesn't offer a lot of talented kids, they have tons of kids who are hard workers and listen well, which is precisely the type of kid I was, so I'm confident that I can help make a difference in these kids' lives on and off the track. Its very convenient for me to coach and substitute but I am looking into maybe finding another day job for the spring season.
As for my social future, well that's really the only real foggy part of my future. I'm heading up to Ann Arbor on Thursday for a kind of "last hurrah" if you will and I'm pretty excited for it. I say it that way because honestly I can't continue to rely on trips to Ann Arbor to get my social fix in. i'm pretty sure I need to find a way to build some kind of presence here, at the very least to be able to show my friends a good time if they ever find themselves on the east coast. While Mike D and I had a great time, I still feel like I could have been such a better host, so I'm working on that. Also I want to start planning some reunion with cass and chin, and now with wheeler moving even further out of reach to Denver, that will be a tough chore indeed. But it shouldn't be so hard after all, because soon enough I'll be able to buy my own car, which will be the first time I'll own and drive a car that is outright mine, so I'm pretty excited for this import step in my independence.
What's on my mind? (Not a facebook status update ha)
Well again I have been struggling with this whole 45 situation. On one side, I am really on or off as in how much I like her and when I'm not really into it. Usually when I'm in a situation like this my intuition tells me that if I'm not always into her, and I don't always want to see her, then its probably a recipe for disaster. But for some reason I'm reluctant to go down that path again. I sometimes get the sense that she too is holding back, just because she doesn't know how to feel about this unnamed limbo we've been in for the last couple of months to a year. So I think that, as a person who talks about taking chances and leaps of faith, I should follow my own advice here. After my michigan trip this upcoming week/end, I think I will finally make that step to official and then actually give her a complete chance of a relationship. The reason is that as for now I have no real reasons to progress or digress, but staying in the middle is bad for both of us and keeping us from moving on. There are a couple of reasons for why I said I'll wait till I get back, one she's pretty sick right now so we won't be able to go on dates or anything like that for a while anyway. And two, well we all know what Rick's is like, I'd rather not put myself in a curious situation in a fresh relationship. Ah man I'm going to guess that a couple of my next blogs after this will be all about the new Stev with a girlfriend so look out for those, they are sure to be amusing and probably confusing.
My mom recently pointed out to me that I've been out of college for a year this past December. That thought made me pause for a second...is this where I pictured myself a year after college? Certainly not, but at least I am on my way to getting to where I thought I would be. I mean a lot happened after graduation and I think i've done my best to stay focused and keep looking ahead, and as always I'm 100% positive that I'm in the position I should be in and will get to where I want to be.
Well that about does it for now, It sucks that I don't have any cool stories to tell or anything. I mean the only interesting thing I've heard lately is my friend say that he decided to give up doing drugs, while he was tripping on Acid....Yeah a pretty unique situation but hey I support anyone who gives up on hard drugs, because as he said he realized "they don't get you anywhere."
The Raven's play today!!!! Yeah it's been a tough year being a fan again, because they are a terribly boring team to watch, unless you absolutely love defense, but lets admit it, good defense makes for bad television. And I suppose the Bears play sometime this weekend too, but I hate them and Jay Cutler, but for the sake of Chin I guess they can win too.
First of all, what have I been doing?
Well I am now a full blown assistant basketball coach. Along with that title come all the responsibilities of not being the head guy in charge, meaning I have to do a lot of the grunt work. Last night I got to travel to another school, while we had a home game, and scout two of the teams playing. It was my first scouting experience but it was pretty good. Watching two teams play that I have no stock in is interesting, and by half time I found myself routing for one of the teams regardless. During practice times I'm in charge of the extra conditioning, mostly from disciplinary actions, of the kids, as well as make sure practice keeps moving along in a timely fashion, working the scoreboard, getting supplies, and keeping the kids focused. Every now and then I actually get to coach, but since I have very limited basketball experience I suppose its not so much of a bad thing for me to not have too much input.
During the daytimes, I either have been staying at home, or more recently substitute teaching a lot. I have become somewhat of a token celebrity sub as all the kids who about me and cheer whenever they see me in the hallways. I get a lot of sighs when they realize I'm not really there for their class ha. I think a lot of my renown comes from my little bro, who appears to be known by everyone of all grade levels there. Last Saturday we had a surprise 18th Birthday party for him and there were over 40 kids at our house....40, I can't remember a time in high school when I could get 10 people together much less 40. But anyway I sub anywhere from 2-5 times a week, which means I get to go to bed around 11 every night and wake up at 6. The good thing is this prepares me for the job I'm going to get one day, although at this moment that seems a good bit off.
As for my social life, I've been experimenting hanging out with different groups of people and so far nothing of note has happened. I guess it's true what my little brother says about me I have "high standards for everything." I mean when it comes to friends, at this point, I'm not too interested in making acquaintances I only go out to the bars with, because well I've done all that before, and we did it well. I'm trying to make more well rounded friends that either have their life in order already, or are at least on a path to do so. Oddly enough, the more I substitute teach, the closer I get to a lot of the teachers in the school. They start to ask for me by name to cover their classes and a lot of the younger teachers have heard about me. This is nice because there are a couple of them that I would like to get to know better and for the moment at least they aren't rocking any jewelery on their left hands.
So anyways as a summary, I've been coaching, sub teaching, and searching for a new group of friends closer than Chicago and Michigan.
What I've been planning/thinking about my future.
So what do I want to do eventually, its a question that people always seem to ask you when you meet and a pretty good one I think. It's always nice for a person to know the path their on, and eventually where they want that path to take them. For me the answer is definite, back to school. I'm just about ready to finish paying off my education at Michigan, thanks to living at home and working and saving money, and now about ready to start that grad school thing. Due to my lack of being able to get my official transcripts, I wasn't able to feel the fall deadlines in entirety, so the people at the office of the local school I'm applying to are trying to work it out or I just might have to wait for spring. In either case I plan on going back to school and getting my master's in counseling psych. After that I want to work asap, and hopefully continue to work towards my Ph.D. As I continue to coach and interact with student athletes, I'm thinking that I have an interest in coaching also. So I'm looking into schools with graduate assistant coaching positions and potentially trying to do that route as well. In the mean time I will continue to coach at my high school and keep meeting contacts and people in the area to get my foot into that door as well.
As basketball season begins to wind down, I'm looking ahead to my real passion, Track. This spring I get to start coaching track which I am very excited for. To be able to teach kids to love the sport that got me so far in my young life and gave me the opportunities to see things I would never have seen otherwise. I think that while my high school doesn't offer a lot of talented kids, they have tons of kids who are hard workers and listen well, which is precisely the type of kid I was, so I'm confident that I can help make a difference in these kids' lives on and off the track. Its very convenient for me to coach and substitute but I am looking into maybe finding another day job for the spring season.
As for my social future, well that's really the only real foggy part of my future. I'm heading up to Ann Arbor on Thursday for a kind of "last hurrah" if you will and I'm pretty excited for it. I say it that way because honestly I can't continue to rely on trips to Ann Arbor to get my social fix in. i'm pretty sure I need to find a way to build some kind of presence here, at the very least to be able to show my friends a good time if they ever find themselves on the east coast. While Mike D and I had a great time, I still feel like I could have been such a better host, so I'm working on that. Also I want to start planning some reunion with cass and chin, and now with wheeler moving even further out of reach to Denver, that will be a tough chore indeed. But it shouldn't be so hard after all, because soon enough I'll be able to buy my own car, which will be the first time I'll own and drive a car that is outright mine, so I'm pretty excited for this import step in my independence.
What's on my mind? (Not a facebook status update ha)
Well again I have been struggling with this whole 45 situation. On one side, I am really on or off as in how much I like her and when I'm not really into it. Usually when I'm in a situation like this my intuition tells me that if I'm not always into her, and I don't always want to see her, then its probably a recipe for disaster. But for some reason I'm reluctant to go down that path again. I sometimes get the sense that she too is holding back, just because she doesn't know how to feel about this unnamed limbo we've been in for the last couple of months to a year. So I think that, as a person who talks about taking chances and leaps of faith, I should follow my own advice here. After my michigan trip this upcoming week/end, I think I will finally make that step to official and then actually give her a complete chance of a relationship. The reason is that as for now I have no real reasons to progress or digress, but staying in the middle is bad for both of us and keeping us from moving on. There are a couple of reasons for why I said I'll wait till I get back, one she's pretty sick right now so we won't be able to go on dates or anything like that for a while anyway. And two, well we all know what Rick's is like, I'd rather not put myself in a curious situation in a fresh relationship. Ah man I'm going to guess that a couple of my next blogs after this will be all about the new Stev with a girlfriend so look out for those, they are sure to be amusing and probably confusing.
My mom recently pointed out to me that I've been out of college for a year this past December. That thought made me pause for a second...is this where I pictured myself a year after college? Certainly not, but at least I am on my way to getting to where I thought I would be. I mean a lot happened after graduation and I think i've done my best to stay focused and keep looking ahead, and as always I'm 100% positive that I'm in the position I should be in and will get to where I want to be.
Well that about does it for now, It sucks that I don't have any cool stories to tell or anything. I mean the only interesting thing I've heard lately is my friend say that he decided to give up doing drugs, while he was tripping on Acid....Yeah a pretty unique situation but hey I support anyone who gives up on hard drugs, because as he said he realized "they don't get you anywhere."
The Raven's play today!!!! Yeah it's been a tough year being a fan again, because they are a terribly boring team to watch, unless you absolutely love defense, but lets admit it, good defense makes for bad television. And I suppose the Bears play sometime this weekend too, but I hate them and Jay Cutler, but for the sake of Chin I guess they can win too.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
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